One week on

It is simply ages since last post. Felt like adding something today. One week since Gaynor's death. Two days since her funeral. Funeral day would have been chemo at Western Hospital. Today would have been usual medical message for the growing pain in her arms and body. Monday and wednesday appt a nearly every week for well over 2 years. Now on a Wednesday I feel at a loss. What to do today? Oh yes, I've worked through the list of whom one needs to contact. Did that yesterday. The house is tidy and pretty clean. Washing and ironing up to date. But it is Wednesday and every Wednesday I ....... How to, as someone said to me, "recalibrate" daily life ... Mostly alone, with a silent and empty house. Ritual and regular are ended. Now for whatever comes next.