Bit of a scare

Yesterday a check because of Gaynor's breathlessness led to a CT scan with a concern re blood clots in lungs. All OK. But there is a bit of unknown scaring at bottom of her lungs. Cause is unknown, but nothing to be concerned about. Now half way through chemo treatment.

Somewhat unthinking by me

Yesterday morning I came home after an appointment with the surgeon who did some 'work' on the top of my head last week. Pathology report is that it is a "rare" cancer and I have to return for further surgery soon. He both said things were OK and not so OK. So, I retuned to Gaynor not in the best of hearts and spilled out my concerns about me to her without thinking about her. Then it dawned on me that I had not considered her situation at all. I was bound up in my own concern that I had, well just, not thought. It was not at all helpful of me. I should have managed the telling, etc. a whole lot better. Now Gaynor is not only concerned about herself, but also me. And I have to shake myself up and realise the reality of our lives.
Went to gym early this morning and that helped refresh my mind.
Now to be more sensitive and so on for the rest of today.

Bit weary

The last week has proved a bit weary. Gaynor finds herself out of breath and needing to have a nap in the afternoon. It appears to be symptomatic of being halfway through chemo treatment.

3rd chemo yesterday

Margaret Annells  came to sit with Gaynor for a while during the chemo treatment. Margaret and Brian are most supportive friends. Brian took me down to Henley Square for a coffee and chat.

Two more steps

Friday 1 November, All Saints Day, was the celebration(?) of the 'formal' acknowledgment of the conclusion of my active ministry (aka retirement). The service was in the evening and there were 8 of us being acknowledged. Gaynor came with me for the special dinner and the service. She looked great in black pants, gorgeous sky blue top and her fantastic honey blond wig! Many folk spoke to us, acknowledging me, yes, but also Gaynor for her presence. Tomorrow, Monday, is the 3rd. of the chemotherapy treatments. A not so easy day, but with some great moments before it.