Pain again

The now regular cycle of leg and other pain commencing a couple of days after chemo has hit Gaynor again. Not a good night and in some anguish this morning.

Conclude and face more

So some hurdles are met and got over. Only to be advised of further hurdles and challenges anew. Second to last is a prelude to a new set of medical interventions to be faced. There are months of 'scary things' still to come. Things that Gaynor keeps quiet about, and in private moments brings her to anguish and tears. And me? I just hang around being helpfully unhelpfull as usual.

Second to last

Yesterday second to last chemo. Then in March decision re surgery, radiotherapy, etc. Mixed emotions.

All over the place

Gaynor continues to find things difficult. Disappearance of eyelashes leads to tears, inability to read, even watch TV. My surgery, successful, has left me with horrible scaring on my head. Large cricket ball sized crater. Place where graft taken from right thigh continues to weep and bleed, running down my leg. Gaynor finding it hard to support me. Headaches for both of us don't help much either. We are definitely not going to retire, ever again.

Friday

Gaynor is really struggling today. Legs hurt, body hurts. I think it is floe to the worst she has been. And I'm uncomfortable in not knowing what to do to alleviate the discomfort.

A bit uphill

Gaynor finding things a bit "uphill" at the moment. Very painful legs & not easy to walk. She is also feeling 'tired'. I'm continuing to bumble around trying to be helpful.

Wrong of me

I was grumpy, and grumpy with Gaynor this morning. Not good. Hope it was just a lapse by me, but not helpful anyway.

Over half way

Yesterday's chemo for Gaynor meant that she has passed the half way mark in her treatment. I continue to try to be supportive in my usual bumbling way.

Another wedding anniversary

Yesterday we celebrated our 43rd. wedding anniversary. Incredible, but there we are. This has been a challenging celebration, but on to the 44th!